I’m panic prone, weak and powerless against the on coming storm. I wish I could simply take my fears and bury them, I need a remedy, something to break my fall, paranoia will not chase me from my faith. I will be sober, I will not break. I’m out of reasons to hold on to my past personas, I want to feel the change, I want to feel myself evolve.

I’m struggling to remain in the deep end. Perhaps, It’s my simple design or perhaps it’s just familiar voices echoing my past disclaimers. What is this gift you are offering me? Oh, a clearer understanding that the deep end is “life” filled with many possibilities.

So I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be, floating above the currents, drifting in the direction I’m supposed to go?  Remedied, I’m no longer panic prone, weak or powerless, now that I’m reconnected to the roots of my simple design of my humble soul.  I will not be afraid to remain in the deep end, I will push against the current, I will not retreat to safer waters.

 Remedied, I’m no longer panic prone, weak or powerless, no longer will I be the outsider, I will be sober, I will not break, I will respect the path that drives my faith. There will be a time when I’ll see, what’s truly inside of me. If only I could experience now what it feels like to be fully cured. Until than I must exercise patience.

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